you make me love you

Arif Alvindar Mi'raj

my beloved fuckin' boyfriend
cause you really really make me crazy of your behavior
i hate when i don't know where you are
i hate when you make me cry
i hate when you make me waiting for your call
i hate when i don't know what you do
you don't know how to treat me as your gf

the best damn thing

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the dooreven though

I told him yesterday and the day before

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab

And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad

Where are the hopes, where are the dreams

My Cinderella story scene

When do you think they'll finally see

That you're not not not gonna get any better

You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never

Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me

We're not the same and yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle

You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal

Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen

I hate it when a guy doesn't understand

Why a certain time of month I don't wanna hold his hand

I hate it when they go out, and we stay in

And they come home smelling like their ex girlfriends

I found my hopes, I found my dreams

this means speak!!

i am craving substance over style..
so if i am trying to start a new relationship,
seek out a person to whom i really feel intelectual conection,
not just someone i like flirting with :)
a physical attraction is important, but i am ready to engage with someone's mind and found out what really makes them tick ;p

huaaahhh..
really need bed rest!!!

if i've been feeling overwhelmed lately,
it's probably because i am pushing myself way too hard!
reset my agenda today and make sure i am not spreading myself too thin..
if im tired, take a nap. if im sick of dealing with whiners, get some quiet alone time!
listen to my body and follow my mood, whatever hits me, whenever it hits me, today..
not every day has to be full of activities and accomplishments,
it's a day i should spend focusing on my own needs..

what a wonderful saturday night

janjinya mau ketemu sama sukma di McD pangkalan jati,

tapi gue ga ada pulsa dan ga ngabarin dia. akhirnya ga jadi deh

sore smsan sama dhanu trus dia ngajak jalan

yaudah akhirnya malem dia jemput kerumah gue

trus kita makan di Food Fest, Kemang

terakhir ketemu waktu dia nemenin gue di RS waktu bokap gue dirawat

gue udah di putusin sama anthi di status fb

gara2 anthi udah punya pacar baru. ahahha..

selamat ya sayang :)

gue = salah satu orang ter-MUNAFIK di dunia

gue ngebohongin diri gue sendiri dan orang lain
gue ngebohongin kalo gue emang ga bisa tanpa dia
tanpa orang yg nyatanya udah punya pengganti gue
sedangkan gue?
masih aja sendiri dan ga bisa ngelupain dia

seseorang bilang :
"jangan fonis diri sendiri kaya gitu,
kata hati ga pernah bohong, cuma kita yg kadang bohongin kata hati
kadang kita juga ga ngerti apa yg dibilang kata hati"

bener sih semua yg dibilang dia
tapi gue cuma butuh cara buat ngelupain dia
sampe akhirnya gue ga akan bohongin siapa-pun

forum komunikasi cucu hoffland

ade gue, gue, ka fatma

(pas pertemuan pertama forum cucu dari kake gue)

they are my beloved parents :)

jadul banget sih fotonya

ini ditemuin di group Hoffland di facebook

hoffland : nama dari kake gue

banyak banget foto-foto jadulnya tante + om gue

jadi inget sepupu, tante sama om gue yg udah meninggal

kangen banget mau ngumpul rame kaya dulu

sekarang keluarga gue udah mulai tinggal sedikit

tapi gue seneng banget akhirnya mas adji bikin forum ini

bisa mempererat tali silaturahmi antara keluarga dari bokap

bebas tugas !!

presentasi tentang transgender udah selesai

yeyeye, lega banget setelah ngalamin nervous yg gila-gilaan..

tapi ini semua bikin gue nambah pengetahuan tentang transgender

gimana cara ngadepin mereka dari pandangan psikologinya

dan doain gue jadi speaker terbaik ya :)

oiya, tanggal 30 sabtu besok dikampus ada students competition

ada lomba speech, debate, student idol, tabble tennis, poem and chess

tapi sayangnya sabtu ga bisa dateng!

ada janji sama anthi + indah

but goodluck for all my classmate that participate in this event :)

mulai bosan kuliah

speaking workshop assignment about transgender always resound in my head!

sial banget sih harus presentasi pertama

dengan tema yg susah dan dari sisi psikologinya pula

bahasa inggris bikin gue mulai gila nih..

kenapa mesti ngambil sastra inggris sih cha?

• bahasa inggris ga ribet
• ga ada itung itungan
• ga ada sejarah sejarahan
• ga ada afal afalan
• cuma modal mengarang bebas

tapi nyatanya?

sastra inggris itu ribet!

tugas tugas tugas melulu

presentasi, debat dan semacamnya yg mengharuskan gue speak up

ohh god, kapan ini semua berlalu?

2 taun lagi?

lama banget bagi gue nunggu gelar sarjana sastra selama 2 taun!

itupun kalo gue ga ngulang. aahahahaha..

smester 1 yg masih gampang menghasilkan IP 3.6

gimana smester 2?

mulai males kuliah, males belajar, pokoknya serba males deh!

arrrrrgggghhhhh......

BOSAN KULIAH!!!!!

confused

huaaah, i dunno what should i do now..
tugas grammar bikin mati kutu!
telat abis ngerjainnya
ibu, cepetlah pulang. mana THE JAKARTA POSTnya?
besok banyak banget tugas dan ga mungkin bolos lagi
udah tinggal jatah bolos sekali lagi nih. hhuu :(

underload mode : on

hari ini abis ada mata kuliah pengganti speaking

and after this, i'm going to go to senayan city with nitha and lewis :)
dari pada nothing to do nunggu sampe jam 2,
mendingan iseng iseng aja ahh..

several things that i always bring!
1. GUM

i like to chew a gum!!
gue suka banget ngunyah permen karet dari pagi sampe siang :)
di kelas, di bioskop, dan dimanapun gue berada..
meskipun pernah ada kejadian konyol waktu gue makan permen karet

• permen karet ketelen
• dimarahin guru pas dikelas
• dibilang jorok sama reza

apapun yg mereka bilang ga akan pernah ngubah kecintaan gue sama permen karet!

2. TISSUEi cant live without tissue!!
cause everyday i always sneeze
sampe dibilang bersin kucing
trus hebatnya lagi, kalo bersin gue ga mungkin cukup sekali
and all my friends know it..
tapi hari ini, i feel terrible, horrible, awful and worse :(
there's a pretty bad flu going around!!
any suggestion to solve my problem?

3. BEAUTY CASE
its a must!
soalnya muka gue berminyak dan bise bikin jerawatan
didalam beauty case gue biasanya ada :

• facial foam
• lip balm
• compact powder
• loose powder

dengan adanya barang2 ini gue bisa lebih merawat diri ;p

4. NECKLACE
i fell in love with necklace
all my family and friend know it!
so when my aunt came back from thailand,
she gave me a cute necklace
my sister gave me a necklace that made by herself..
so i never forget to wear and bring it wherever i go

0kee. enough for today :)
GTG!!!!

pilihanku di malam hari

sukma hardiansa ramadhan

di telvon dia malem malem
harusnya tidur karna bangun pagi tapi malah telvonan
ujan diluar sampe ga kedengeran lagi karna berisiknya ditelvon :)
banyak cerita tentang mantan dia dan mantan gue
nyanyi lagu resah tanpamunya titi kamal - anji drive
nyanyi lagu pilihankunya maliq n d'essential
sambil ketawa ga jelas udah kaya tante kunti ;p

kengen adi banget!!!
i dont know exactly what i feel
when i love someone,
all my saved-up wishes start coming out

today is my free day

baru sempet masukin foto2 ke blog..

maav ya ga sesuai tanggal jalannya :D

waiting for the class at 2pm

ngantuk banget ihh..
biasanya hari ini libur kuliah!!
tapi ada tambahan jam kuliah vocabulary
terlalu deh ah..
daripada bosen mendingan ngedit dit dit!
aku rindu adobe photoshop.....

editing some photo with corel paint

huaaaah, i must study at 2pm
i feel sleepy!

ka occa wedding

hari ini ka occa nikah
huah akhirnya orang yg setia jemput dia tiap pulang kuliah, pulang kerja, dan kemanapun ka occa pergi malah jadi yg terakhir :)
seneng pas tau akhirnya mereka bersama selamanya. aminn

disuruh jadi penerima tamu bareng rina ade gue
tapi rina hari ini sekolah dan ga bisa!
jadi gue ajak aja tunangan gue. anthi..
engga deh!
dia ini sahabat gue sepanjang masa deh
susah seneng udah gue jalanin bareng dia
dari mulai gue jealous dia deket sama cowo gue,
sampe berantem karna ego masing masing
lucu sih kalo difikir fikir berantem karna ego kita
tapi dihati gue sayangg banget sama anthi dan indah

muka kita kaya banci ya yang :)

i love anthi yangg. hhe :D
cupcup muah muah..

i wanna take a nap

mau tidur!
but i gotta study..

Adi mau ulang tahun..

kasih kado apa ya?
1. casio watch for man
2. laptop bag - polo brand
3. lee cooper jeans
4. cd jason mraz

boring day!

1. black dress : my sister
2. gold belt : my sister
3. head band : created by myself
4. watch : casio

bad day!

besok ada quis 5 bab, i must study hard for it!
tapi ga masuk masuk belajar dari semalem. huaaaahhh..
its make me crazy!
ga mau belajar, cape belajar dari TK sampe kuliah
ada ga ya cara efisien pinter, dapet kerja tanpa belajar? hahaha :D
kalopun ada gue mau ikutin tuh cara itu..
tapi sayangnya pasti semua kalo mau pinter ya mesti belajar ;c

new blog :)

yeah, im new here! happy finally have blog :)
im riesa rismaulina but you can call me cacha,
i'll post my next blog later all ;p